[ her lips purse, as the origins of their magick never really occurred to her. or maybe those who could have enlightened her died before they had the chance to explain. much of her learning has been self-taught by necessity, but the woman is correct. ]
I have lost... a part of myself, yes. [ the magick, the energy, it is gone. she cannot call upon the spirits of her sisters and that matters more to her than any ability to cast a spell. ] How do you know so much?
[ is she a jedi too? but cal said he was the last of his people. unless... ]
[And she feels more weak because of that than whatever this is. This will pass, she's heard, but her connection to the Force will not be restored.
Trilla considers her next words carefully.]
I was once a Jedi Padawan. My master spent much of her own training studying history, and I suppose... she instilled in me a respect for research as a result.
[Although, she often heard more stories (lovingly) complaining about Cordova's work.]
[ merrin's eyes narrow as she listens, absorbs, and puts the pieces together. ]
You are Trilla. The Second Sister.
[ her expression darkens and she takes a step back, feeling foolish for helping her now. this woman is an enemy - not one she has ever seen but one she has heard enough of from cal and his friends. ]
[ of course cal is not here to her knowledge, which is sad but doesn't bother her greatly. she is used to being alone. however she did not expect to run into the inquisitor who has been hunting him and cere. ]
He is not here you know. It's a shame. You are lucky I cannot use my magick.
[ she buried taron malicos in the ground easy enough after cal weakened him. she has no reservation doing the same to trilla. ]
[It is a shame. He would be useful as a mediator right about now, but Trilla will try her best.]
I have no quarrel with you.
[And she still thinks it would be wise for Merrin to kill her.]
My master forgave me in my final moments. I tell you this, not for your forgiveness or for your pity, but so that you might believe me when I say I have no interest in harming your little group.
[ it's a dubious claim from a woman who has been trying to kill Cal for some time now. she has not heard a lot about trilla, but she does not need to know much more than that. ]
You are without your power and without your forces. Seems you are also ill. [ she exhales, trying to think what to do with her now in front of her. what would the others do? ] Do you have any interest in harming me?
[ she grits her teeth, debating. such an easy target and you don't need magick to kill a person. ]
I should. You are not to be trusted. [ it's not hard to think of malicos in this moment, his lies and how easily she believed them. ] But I won't. You are no threat to me.
Oh?
[It’s strange, for the first time in years, to not be considered a threat. But, she still has her words.]
What reason does Cal Kestis have to trust you? What exactly makes you so different from me?
I protected him from danger. Just once, but perhaps that gave him reason enough.
[ his trust in her, despite her hostilities toward him, has confused her. the best reason she can come up is that he is, innately, a good person. if trilla were to lower her sword and stop trying to kill him, merrin is sure he would even extend the same kindness to her. all of them are survivors. trilla simply chose a different path to that survival. ]
[She'd argue that she technically did the same. She died, and he escaped. Not that she really had a choice in the matter, but when had she ever?]
I cannot speak for him, so I won't. But as I said before, I believe that for whatever reason, I do have my master's trust. All three of us have used the dark side, yes? I don't know about you, but I would argue Cere's sins are greater than mine. Do you trust her?
I do. But of course you would argue against her. She betrayed you, no?
[ she doesn't know all the details, but she was told enough to understand there is history. the jedi, for all the reverence cal speaks of them with, are so strangely flawed when it comes to loyalty. merrin would never betray any of her sisters. ]
This dark side you speak of seems to drive you Jedi mad. It did the same to another I knew, a man named Malicos. He had my trust and abused it. For that I buried him. I will do the same to you if you prove my kindness today wrong.
She did. I don't see it as arguing against her, though. I'm only stating facts. If you trust her, you have little reason not to trust me.
[The way she feels about Cere is... complicated, but part of her still wishes she was here. She could probably explain this better.]
You speak as if your own connection is any different than mine. Either way, I am harmless now. How many times must I repeat myself before you understand that?
It is different. [ she smiles, a touch smug as she speaks. ] I was born in the dark recesses of Dathomir. Thrived in it. People like you, like Malicos, seek this 'dark side' for the power it brings. It makes you feel powerful enough to take whatever you want.
[ what does trilla want though? she wanted that holocron with all the children that cal sought to nurture into jedi. did she want them to become like her instead? ]
I am not concerned with you for who you are in the present. However, power can always be gained again. Claiming to be harmless only makes me suspect you more.
But I am not Cere, nor am I Cal. I am not so forgiving. [ maybe someday she can be, but not now. not to someone who tried to hurt her friends. ] What were your plans for the holocron. For all those children? To say you sought nothing rings false.
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I have lost... a part of myself, yes. [ the magick, the energy, it is gone. she cannot call upon the spirits of her sisters and that matters more to her than any ability to cast a spell. ] How do you know so much?
[ is she a jedi too? but cal said he was the last of his people. unless... ]
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[And she feels more weak because of that than whatever this is. This will pass, she's heard, but her connection to the Force will not be restored.
Trilla considers her next words carefully.]
I was once a Jedi Padawan. My master spent much of her own training studying history, and I suppose... she instilled in me a respect for research as a result.
[Although, she often heard more stories (lovingly) complaining about Cordova's work.]
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You are Trilla. The Second Sister.
[ her expression darkens and she takes a step back, feeling foolish for helping her now. this woman is an enemy - not one she has ever seen but one she has heard enough of from cal and his friends. ]
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[She grins upon receiving the reaction she expected from the beginning.]
I see. You're an associate of Cal Kestis.
[He has made so many trips to Dathomir... Perhaps this was the reason?]
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[ of course cal is not here to her knowledge, which is sad but doesn't bother her greatly. she is used to being alone. however she did not expect to run into the inquisitor who has been hunting him and cere. ]
He is not here you know. It's a shame. You are lucky I cannot use my magick.
[ she buried taron malicos in the ground easy enough after cal weakened him. she has no reservation doing the same to trilla. ]
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I have no quarrel with you.
[And she still thinks it would be wise for Merrin to kill her.]
My master forgave me in my final moments. I tell you this, not for your forgiveness or for your pity, but so that you might believe me when I say I have no interest in harming your little group.
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[ it's a dubious claim from a woman who has been trying to kill Cal for some time now. she has not heard a lot about trilla, but she does not need to know much more than that. ]
You are without your power and without your forces. Seems you are also ill. [ she exhales, trying to think what to do with her now in front of her. what would the others do? ] Do you have any interest in harming me?
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[she replies with a small smile.]
What of you? I am an easy target, as you've established.
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I should. You are not to be trusted. [ it's not hard to think of malicos in this moment, his lies and how easily she believed them. ] But I won't. You are no threat to me.
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[ his trust in her, despite her hostilities toward him, has confused her. the best reason she can come up is that he is, innately, a good person. if trilla were to lower her sword and stop trying to kill him, merrin is sure he would even extend the same kindness to her. all of them are survivors. trilla simply chose a different path to that survival. ]
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I cannot speak for him, so I won't. But as I said before, I believe that for whatever reason, I do have my master's trust. All three of us have used the dark side, yes? I don't know about you, but I would argue Cere's sins are greater than mine. Do you trust her?
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[ she doesn't know all the details, but she was told enough to understand there is history. the jedi, for all the reverence cal speaks of them with, are so strangely flawed when it comes to loyalty. merrin would never betray any of her sisters. ]
This dark side you speak of seems to drive you Jedi mad. It did the same to another I knew, a man named Malicos. He had my trust and abused it. For that I buried him. I will do the same to you if you prove my kindness today wrong.
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[The way she feels about Cere is... complicated, but part of her still wishes she was here. She could probably explain this better.]
You speak as if your own connection is any different than mine. Either way, I am harmless now. How many times must I repeat myself before you understand that?
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[ what does trilla want though? she wanted that holocron with all the children that cal sought to nurture into jedi. did she want them to become like her instead? ]
I am not concerned with you for who you are in the present. However, power can always be gained again. Claiming to be harmless only makes me suspect you more.
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[The perfect Jedi to replace the padawan she lost, who'd finally fulfill her master's goals because she was too scared to.]
Yes, I know. You're only concerned with what I was in the past. But your whole little crew is made up entirely of second chances, is it not?
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But I am not Cere, nor am I Cal. I am not so forgiving. [ maybe someday she can be, but not now. not to someone who tried to hurt her friends. ] What were your plans for the holocron. For all those children? To say you sought nothing rings false.