[L doesn't want to look at Near; with no avenues for easy escape, his gaze is the only available one, and it's currently averted, rigidly fixed to the floor on his Bonded's left side.
To pull his gaze back to Near's face is astonishingly difficult; it's clear in every moment that passes, the hoarseness of L's voice and the pallor of his skin.]
No... you're not angry. They said that you never were...
[Haunted eyes break away again, before returning to inhabit their torment.]
They always said that nothing at all bothered you. Obviously, it... it wasn't the case.
[He speaks quickly, as though pressed.]
I truly wanted it to be, I spent days going over all the ways it could have been foul play, because I wanted to think that someone could be that strong, but...
[His breathlessness is the only thing that keeps him from continuing in the same broken, strange, desperate vein. It's likely that once he recovers, it will continue unless he's interrupted.]
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To pull his gaze back to Near's face is astonishingly difficult; it's clear in every moment that passes, the hoarseness of L's voice and the pallor of his skin.]
No... you're not angry. They said that you never were...
[Haunted eyes break away again, before returning to inhabit their torment.]
They always said that nothing at all bothered you. Obviously, it... it wasn't the case.
[He speaks quickly, as though pressed.]
I truly wanted it to be, I spent days going over all the ways it could have been foul play, because I wanted to think that someone could be that strong, but...
[His breathlessness is the only thing that keeps him from continuing in the same broken, strange, desperate vein. It's likely that once he recovers, it will continue unless he's interrupted.]